i don't know...

I don't know whats up with me today, Lifes crazy game of schemes are messing with me bad today. I don't get it, i have a good night, then the next day is like hell...I didn't do anything today, because i didn't want to. I woke up to my mother yelling, like always. My brother, Amanda and i actually got along today. idk what the hell is up with Beau right now...he's having a hard time with Denise, i guess... I'm really starting to hate the idea of my dad working, because my mother acts like she's fine when he is at work, but then when he gets home she is all "sick" again. She called Renee last night, trying to be sneaky at like 1:00 in the A.M. poor her, i was outside sitting in the cold; thinking, i guess and i was like, "who are you talking to?" i had to ask about 5 times before she answered, then she kind od stalled and said "renee" and started her conversation up really fast. See the other day she said, "isn't it nice that daddy and i are gettning along?" my only reply was, "i don't want to say anything, because i always speak too soon." and she said, "ohh thanks, that makes me feel real good" Well, i wasn't wrong! I have been trying really hard to be patient with my mother, but it's getting hard, sh never stops talking, then she starts yelling...and when i say she never stops talking, i mean more than usual! I guess she yelled at Flo today and when i came out of my whole (my room) this afternoon, she had already been yelling at Clauda for HOURS! about problems that aren't her own. Then she brought up all kinds of things to me, making me feel like i am worth less than a DIME! i'm going crazy, i don't know what to do.She is so "depressing" that it makes everyone around her either "depressed" -or- Angry! i don't know what to do right now....kind of feeling hurt from a few different angles of life right now.